" He guarded him like an eagle that stirs up its nest and hovers over its
young, that spreads its wings to catch them and carries them on its pinions. The
Lord alone led him, no foriegn god was w/him." (deut. 32.10-12)
Saturday, September 30, 2006
Friday, September 29, 2006
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Friday, September 22, 2006
Thursday, September 21, 2006
i loved this picture....i can't help but think of God's promises to us in the midst of pain, suffering, heartache, trouble, difficulties, uncertains, and etc....i live in His promises for me and brooke for i know the plans He has....no not exact plans, but i'm okay w/out knowing where tomorrow will take me...He goes before us, stands beside us, and holds me up from behind so i'm standing. i'm certain that He knows and that is enough for me.
brooke has had numerous BM's in the past few days....doctors in chicago says this is a great thing and that the metals are coming out. we were encouraged by this....however, i do know she is uncomfortable w/as many as 3/4 in a day---the bathroom is the last place i'd wanta go. her aggression at home has excelled just slightly after dinner....hitting the blinds/windows and sceaming very loud. we are not knowing exactly how to handle this taking into consideration the chelation. pray for wisdom and solutions to behavior problems.
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
a dear friend sent this to me...and wanted to put it on the blog today-pray w/me for Brooke if you like. the verse i thought was perfect...and one i need to tie around my neck for encouragement and knowing His character....sometimes it just gets overwhelming and i loose sight of His purposes and plans He has...b/c i take it personally and w/pride (thinking i can do it my way).
Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails. (Proverbs 19:21, NIV)
Father,Thank you that you have purposes for our lives that prevail, and that we can count on you in every circumstance. Even though your purposes prevail, we can often miss your timing and cause the blessings you intend for us to be delayed. Therefore, Lord, we pray that you would give us great wisdom on how to stay in your timing and in your will for our lives and for Brooke's life. We thank you that the challenges that she faces are no real obstacle for you and that you can cause great fruitfulness to come. Lord, we pray that you would give each teacher and therapist great wisdom as they work with her, and that you would give them creative ideas for bringing her to her fullest potential. We thank you for your constant provision and for the comfort of your presence. In Jesus’ Name,Amen
Thursday, September 14, 2006
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
first off....thank you for your comments, they are little gifts of encouragement to me and i appreciate your responses to my random thoughts and raw expressions.
I was reading just yesterday in "streams from the desert" that a dear mentor of mine gave to me...the passage spoke so quietly and still to me that i have to share it.
"who is this coming up from the desert leaning on her
lover?" s/s 8.5
i loved this passage for many reasons...one i do want to share. honestly speaking i have been in the desert for the past month...the desert for me has been painful, it was as if God had video taped my life and showed it back to me in slow motion, and it was insightful as i saw myself thru His eyes and not my own. I consider this passage for me a passage of encouragement and dear communion w/my Lord. the word "up" jumped off the page for me as i realized i'm coming out (up) of the desert....what a relief to say the least.....and then the words "leaning on her lover". Jesus....the lover of my soul, my dearest and best friend, companion above all rest, my comfort, guide....i lean heavily on His shoulders thru His embrace. God has been faithful as i said the other day---and He will continue to be faithful to me...this is His character...His nature.
As far a brooke is concerned....i'm so in love w/her. And though i give her hugs.....as she leans in to give me a kiss on her forehead.....i count it a joy as we go walking...of her leaning in to me for no reason at all -- a gift from what all i have learned in the desert. sweet communion.
Monday, September 11, 2006
a dear friend and i were talking today and she brought to mind a passage of scripture that i've always loved and used from time to tome...however, i had forgotten it. the passage was from Daniel....basicly it was saying....we will not bow down to the idol....and they said, you will be thrown into the fire....daniel said....so be it, our GOD will save us, but EVEN if He does not, we still will not bow down. wow! what courage, strength, faithfulness. it got us to talk about God's faithfullnes to us...NO MATTER WHAT He will be faithful to His children. This....i'm counting on. I choose NOT to bow down even "if". at least, i wanta be there....but not there yet....this is my passion...my desire...my heart's cry to be faithful to Him b/c He is faithful to me.
Sunday, September 10, 2006
i was in memphis part of the weekend helping my parents...my dad is in the hospital....hopefully he will be out soon. pray for quick recovery.
tomorrow starts off a fresh week....a week i'm looking forward to for many reasons.
someone emailed me a verse this past week....i've heard it forever.....but it sure took a new meaning on for me.
"this is the day the Lord has made....let us rejoice and be glad in it".
God has something in store for Brooke....God has something in store for me...and you. I am confident of this very thing....that HE who began a good work in you will complete it. phil. 1.6 give me the confidence i need Lord...and to rejoice in each new day you have made for us.
Friday, September 08, 2006
thank you for your prayers. they are all i need right now.
Thursday, September 07, 2006
Brooke has had good days and bad days this week. ya never really know what she'll walk in the door w/and what to expect....this is good i guess. keeps me on my toes and those that work w/brooke.
yesterday a song came to me as i was in the shower....do you sing in the shower? well....it seems as if everyone in my family does....including brooke and her therapist! ha/
anyway----my dear friend that discipled (michelle) me taught me this song and it just came back to me:
"Jesus take me as i am
I can come no other way
take me deeper into you
let my flesh life melt away
make me like a precious stone
cyrstal clear and finally honed
Life of Jesus shinning thru
giving Glory back to You."
a song on my mind...a song in my heart...a new song...that gives encouragement, worship, praise, thanksgiving, and a way to rejoice....this is what i'm learning....
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
As i was getting home that late afternoon i noticed something on the concrete that "grabbed" my attention and put into a picture of the "acceptance of suffering" for me....w/no sarcasism or humor i was brought to my knees as i saw this flower escaping, growing, budding from, shining, letting others see beauty---as she pushed her way out from the concrete (the hardness, pain, suffering, between a rock and a hard place...if you will). She just sat there...as if to say to me accept the suffering, accept the pain, accept...accept...accept. i quickly snapped a picture to remember. about a half and hour later Ethan (youngest son....addicted to flowers) brought to me the flower that had grown from the concrete as gift.....that i gladly accepted.
Monday, September 04, 2006
brooke is feeling much better and she's off to school tomorrow. i'm worn out, physcially speaking. i think i could lay down and sleep until sometime next afternoon... (w/o medication! ha/)
the Lord is my helper and enables me to be strong.....in ps. 18 it's described as leaping over a wall. there are times when i know my strength is out...and there i go leaping over a wall that unexpectedly showed up....this is My God. If there was an Olypmic for this....i know i'd win...not speaking in vain here....but speaking only for the helpless state that i'm in and the Helpful Hands that push me over to my feet. this is My God.