after talking w/the doctor in chicgo... she said w/brooke's aggression being as it is....we are seeing her detox. i cannot put into words how to console her during her aggression expecially knowing she is detoxing. her eyes are heavy....underneath her eyes are darker than usual...and at school the other day they said she seemed as if she was hurting...she cried until she couldn't speak. last night....for the first time in a long time i noticed how helpless...sick...lonely she must feel. Not having a voice to express your frustrations, pain, suffering...it's as if she was in her own world. Oh how i long to be in it....
i consoled her as best as i could (w/her not wanting you to touch or be near)....it seemed all i could do was pray. "come quickly to our aid God"....
tonight she is resting better...
ya know...i miss the sounds i never hear: "mommy-i don't feel good"
i miss Brooke even though she is in my life day in and day out....i can't explain it....i just miss her.
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