this past year was a basket full of...
joy, love, pain, recovery, freedom,
loss, gains, a step back and a leap forward, forgivness,
a journey of grace, mercy, passion, regrets, small victories,
and the courage of a child to push thru another year.
during this past year, one word has rung solid in my ear.
i dream of it, live for it, imagine it, and one day i'll embrace it....
Jan. 2011, the Lord gave me a promise thru a series of unusual events that led me to this word...this mystical, powerful event found in Lev. 25. in this passage you'll discover every 7 yrs is a year of jubilee. to be a bit more specific verse 10 says, "liberty throughout the land to all its inhabitants. It shall be a jubilee for you; when each of you shall return to his property and each of you shall return to his family." now, i won't go into the details of how, when, where the Lord showed this passage to me...however, i will say it is a promise He led me to that i'm holding fast to. i do know that His way is perfect, He is good, He is a faithful Father to brooke and to our family, and one day....He will return family to family.
i don't know how that looks like...i've thought almost everyday how that would come about...it doesn't make sense to me. as we say, "it doesn't work on paper." i've even thought, this year could be it because brooke is 14 and she has been in a facility since she was 7. but, i can't go there...so, needless to say, the Father's thoughts are higher than mine, My Father's ways are higher than mine. with confidence i rest in just knowing that one day it will happen.
so, i wait, i will wait for our jubilee.